My Little Princess

Nothing in this world means more to me than my little Princess... Puteri Ellixafira a.k.a Ellix. Just look at these. Don't you just fell in love with her?

By the way, she was around 11 months when these were taken. She's 5 plus now (it's more like 5 going 13)







Ellix is five plus and here are some 10 facts and info about her that I would like to share:

1. She can't sleep without her 'Jack' and she prefers the old and smelly ones (she has 5, by the way).
2. She wished that she is older so that she can sleep late like adults.
3. She can watch cartoons (and the reruns) for hours and hours without feeling tired.
4. She still hasn't developed the tastebuds for nasi with lauk-pauk. Still prefers hers with butter. Infact she prefers everything with butter...be it pasta, bread, etc.
5. She thinks she's English and prefers to communicate only in English. She only speaks Malay with maids and those who she knows can't speak English.
6. She likes to tell jokes because she wants people to laugh and be happy. She thinks people will like her more when they are happy.
7. She loves water. Can spend hours in the swimming pool...or even bath tubs.
8. She has a 'boyfriend' by the name of Mika. But now she doesn't like him too much as he has another girl. (Hmmm... girls be be girls...)
9. She refused to learn how to drive go-karts when asked by her abah. According to her, go-karts are only for boys. But, she doesn't mind being the umbrella girl...
10. She keeps asking her mama and abah to get her an adik so that she can have somebody to play with.

New Year...New Resolutions?

Happy New Year!! Good bye 2006 and welcome 2007.

Looking back, 2006 had been a trying year for me. So many things happened that sometimes I wished I can forget that some of them ever happened. But I guess what happened had made me a much stronger and wiser person.

I hope 2007 will be a better year for me. There are so many things that I hope for but most of all I hope that:

1. I will be much stronger emotionally
2. I will be much healthier
3. I will be blessed with a happy family

And, of course not forgetting that I'm also hoping against all odds that;

1. I will be able to lose at least 10kg
2. I will get an increment that will move me to a higher income tax bracket
3. I will discover a fountain of youth that makes me look look younger each day (anyway, I stop counting my age when I turned 29)

Anyway, get real Nana....

Happy Birthday Dear!

Today is hubby's birthday. Last night we (ellix and I) waited until midnight to surprise him with his birthday cake. And then this morning, my MIL called and invited us for lunch at SACC Mall.

To my dear hubby, Happy Birthday to you. My prayers are always with you. I wish you happiness always.

Abah in Memory

Today is Abah's 66th birtday and it has been exactly 6 years since Abah passed away. After 1 year and 3 months of battling over colon cancer, Abah finally rest in peace on his 60th birthday.

I feel so guilty as lately I seem to spend very little time in remembering Abah. I seem to be engrossed with my own matters that I have been spending less time to 'sedekah' ayat-ayat Quran and prayers for Abah.

Abah, if you can hear me, I just want to say how sorry I am. It's not that I forget about you but somehow in going through my day to day life, I seem to be drifted away from you.

I dreamed about you about 4 nights ago. In my dream, you came to me and looked at me with a sad expression on your face, saying nothing.

When I woke up, I felt very sad inside. I keep wondering what is the meaning of my dream? Is Abah trying to tell me how he feels about me? Is he upset with me for not putting aside my time to remember him? Or is he sad with what's going on with my life now?

Abah, to be honest, I do miss you. Infact, I miss you a lot. Many times, especially when I have problem, I wished that you are still around. Somehow I have a feeling that things would be different if you are still around.

Tears welled in my eyes as I'm writing this. I have not cried for you for a long time, not since the day you passed away. That was the end of it. I guess I have cried enough. I cried when I received news news about you suffering from cancer, which was already at stage 4 when it was discovered. I cried when you went for your operations. I cried when I saw your frail body lying on the bed. I cried when taking care of you and saw how cancer destroyed your self esteem. I cried seeing how you suffer for one year and 3 months. And above all, I cried for being so helpless and not able to help you.

Somehow, today, I feel like crying again. It's not grieving for a father who had passed away, but grieving for a daughter who refused to acknowledge that she actually had not done anough for her father when he was around. I cried for a daughter who did not tell her father how much she loved him and how much she idolized him. I cried for a daughter who used to distance herself from her father because she was not able to cope with the reality of life. I cried for a daughter who did not seem to make her father proud of her.

Abah, I hope you can hear me now. I just want to tell you how much I love you and how much I miss you. May you rest in peace and may Allah bless your soul forever.

Al fatihah.

Lumut and Melaka

Phew, these last 3,4 weeks had been very very hectic for me. I had to organize 2 retreats:- 1 for the operations and management staff and the other one for the academic.

Boleh lah relax sikit for a few days before start balik dengan my next big task... Performance Appraisal Exercise.


Operations Workshop 2006 (2-5 Dec):
Swiss Garden, Damai Laut, Lumut
78 Participants
I would say it was a good session. We managed to squeeze some budget to include some teambuilding session (led by En. Rosli of Dale Carnegie). As usual.. I had to terkejar here and there. Luckily I had a good team of repertoire and secretariat to support me. Thanks a lot guys. Would not be able to make it without your help.

Most staff enjoyed the activities planned out for them. Some even mentioned that we should just concentrate on the teambuilding activities and forget about all the presentations. Well... that is not for me to decide. I am just carrying out the request/instruction given.

The karaoke session was also great. Tak disangka-sangka, ramai yang ada hidden talents. We really had fun. And as finale, the President managed to come back from his trip to Penang just before we were about to leave the karaoke room. managed to let the hotel staff to hold for a few minutes and let the big boss sing the finale song... 'My Way'. Never thought that prof could sing so well.


Infusing Thinking Skills Workshop (8-10 Dec):
Melaka Watercity Resort, Ayer Keroh
80 Participants

Based on the comments, most participants were satisfied with the workshop. The sessions planned for them enable them to learn and share what they know. However, I wish the same can be said about the Hotel.

Well, Melaka Watercity resort is a nice place actually. But, the food there is terrible. Even the service was bad. I was very disappointed with the food and services provided, so much so that I had to lodge official complaint with the management. Food tak cukup, tasteless and worst of all, more that 1/4 of our staff had diarrhea. Habis all the medicine yang we all bawak in the First Aid Kit.


Even though penat organizing all those programs but when I received the thank you's from my clients (i.e. the bosses who requested the programs), I feel a sense of accomplishment. Despite of some hiccups here and there, the programs still went quite smoothly and they achieved their objectives.

The Meaning of Love

I was browsing the Internet (http://www.akat.com/lovebook.html) when I bumped into this:

If you are looking for love, would you recognize it if you found it?
Can you tell the difference between love and infatuation?
Between love and attraction?
Between love and sexual desire?
Between love and friendship?
Between sex and intimacy?
Between a good relationship and one that is only pleasurable?

Now I wonder.....

A Holiday Worth Waiting For

I wish I don't have to be back to work yet.

The 6 days spent in Penang was wonderful. We had a blast! Holiday Inn Penang was a great place for families. The room was nice and facilities are great. Ellix loves the kidspot. Once she discovered the place, she basically doesn't want to go elsewhere, except the beach and swimming pool. Even her meals were taken there.

Come to think of it, I think I would enjoy it as much as she does too, if I am her age. She got to do handicrafts, arts, etc, etc. She made a bead-necklace for her and a handpainted mug for me.

Since ellix is basically taken care of at the kidspot, that left my husband and I some time to ourselves. We could go to places that Ellix would compaint (because it is not comfy enough) without having to worry about her.

Too bad the holiday is over.