Saturday, December 30, 2006

Happy Birthday Dear!

Today is hubby's birthday. Last night we (ellix and I) waited until midnight to surprise him with his birthday cake. And then this morning, my MIL called and invited us for lunch at SACC Mall.

To my dear hubby, Happy Birthday to you. My prayers are always with you. I wish you happiness always.

Monday, December 18, 2006

Abah in Memory

Today is Abah's 66th birtday and it has been exactly 6 years since Abah passed away. After 1 year and 3 months of battling over colon cancer, Abah finally rest in peace on his 60th birthday.

I feel so guilty as lately I seem to spend very little time in remembering Abah. I seem to be engrossed with my own matters that I have been spending less time to 'sedekah' ayat-ayat Quran and prayers for Abah.

Abah, if you can hear me, I just want to say how sorry I am. It's not that I forget about you but somehow in going through my day to day life, I seem to be drifted away from you.

I dreamed about you about 4 nights ago. In my dream, you came to me and looked at me with a sad expression on your face, saying nothing.

When I woke up, I felt very sad inside. I keep wondering what is the meaning of my dream? Is Abah trying to tell me how he feels about me? Is he upset with me for not putting aside my time to remember him? Or is he sad with what's going on with my life now?

Abah, to be honest, I do miss you. Infact, I miss you a lot. Many times, especially when I have problem, I wished that you are still around. Somehow I have a feeling that things would be different if you are still around.

Tears welled in my eyes as I'm writing this. I have not cried for you for a long time, not since the day you passed away. That was the end of it. I guess I have cried enough. I cried when I received news news about you suffering from cancer, which was already at stage 4 when it was discovered. I cried when you went for your operations. I cried when I saw your frail body lying on the bed. I cried when taking care of you and saw how cancer destroyed your self esteem. I cried seeing how you suffer for one year and 3 months. And above all, I cried for being so helpless and not able to help you.

Somehow, today, I feel like crying again. It's not grieving for a father who had passed away, but grieving for a daughter who refused to acknowledge that she actually had not done anough for her father when he was around. I cried for a daughter who did not tell her father how much she loved him and how much she idolized him. I cried for a daughter who used to distance herself from her father because she was not able to cope with the reality of life. I cried for a daughter who did not seem to make her father proud of her.

Abah, I hope you can hear me now. I just want to tell you how much I love you and how much I miss you. May you rest in peace and may Allah bless your soul forever.

Al fatihah.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Lumut and Melaka

Phew, these last 3,4 weeks had been very very hectic for me. I had to organize 2 retreats:- 1 for the operations and management staff and the other one for the academic.

Boleh lah relax sikit for a few days before start balik dengan my next big task... Performance Appraisal Exercise.

Operations Workshop 2006 (2-5 Dec):
Swiss Garden, Damai Laut, Lumut
78 Participants
I would say it was a good session. We managed to squeeze some budget to include some teambuilding session (led by En. Rosli of Dale Carnegie). As usual.. I had to terkejar here and there. Luckily I had a good team of repertoire and secretariat to support me. Thanks a lot guys. Would not be able to make it without your help.

Most staff enjoyed the activities planned out for them. Some even mentioned that we should just concentrate on the teambuilding activities and forget about all the presentations. Well... that is not for me to decide. I am just carrying out the request/instruction given.

The karaoke session was also great. Tak disangka-sangka, ramai yang ada hidden talents. We really had fun. And as finale, the President managed to come back from his trip to Penang just before we were about to leave the karaoke room. managed to let the hotel staff to hold for a few minutes and let the big boss sing the finale song... 'My Way'. Never thought that prof could sing so well.

Infusing Thinking Skills Workshop (8-10 Dec):
Melaka Watercity Resort, Ayer Keroh
80 Participants

Based on the comments, most participants were satisfied with the workshop. The sessions planned for them enable them to learn and share what they know. However, I wish the same can be said about the Hotel.

Well, Melaka Watercity resort is a nice place actually. But, the food there is terrible. Even the service was bad. I was very disappointed with the food and services provided, so much so that I had to lodge official complaint with the management. Food tak cukup, tasteless and worst of all, more that 1/4 of our staff had diarrhea. Habis all the medicine yang we all bawak in the First Aid Kit.

Even though penat organizing all those programs but when I received the thank you's from my clients (i.e. the bosses who requested the programs), I feel a sense of accomplishment. Despite of some hiccups here and there, the programs still went quite smoothly and they achieved their objectives.