Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Sad News

I received sad news today. A very good friend of mine was diagnosed with stomach cancer stage 3. The tumor has spread to lymph nodes and she was recommended by doctor to go for chemo to downstage it before going for operation.

A few of us who are close to her was warned not to call her until we have finished crying and until we are sure that we will not cry when we talk to her.

As usual, I thought I was strong but I still cried when I talk to her.

To Dahlia, be strong. We will always doa for you.

Friday, May 25, 2007

Men vs Women


Somebody forwarded this to me. It's example of how men have true loyalty to their friends. The bonds of brotherhood... yeah, right... :)

Friendship Between Women
A woman didn't come home one night. The next day she told her husband that she had slept over at a girlfriend's house. The man called his wife's 10 best friends. None of them knew anything about it.

Friendship Between Men
A man didn't come home one night. The next day he told his wife that he had slept over at a buddy's house. The woman called her husband's 10 best friends. Eight of them confirmed that he had slept over, and two claimed that he was still there.

What does this mean? ..hehehehe

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

How to Compete?

I'm cracking my head to help my HOD prepare proposal paper for increment to the BOD. Thanks very much Kak's not even my portfolio... hehehe

With the recent change in ownership on 1st March 2007, staff are having a lot of speculations and uncertainties whether they will be better off or otherwise under the new management.

Staff has been asking about their benefits. Will the new management review the benefits? Will our salary be reviewed? When will we know whether we will get salary increment or not? So many questions and so little answer to give.

To top it all, the government has recently announced salary increase of 7.5% to 35% and a 100% increase of the cost of living allowance for all civil servants. Wow! how can you compete with that? It makes what we are proposing looks like a pittance. I guess after this everybody would be happy if they get to be a civil servant. Hmmmm....

Monday, May 21, 2007

Keeping a Relationship

I received this through email just now. I do agree with what was written, to a certain extent. But then in life, we have to be realistic too. We do not always get what we want. Sometimes the one available is the best at that point of time.

Keeping a Relationship

It's best to wait for the one you want ...... than settle for the one available.

Best to wait for the one you love than one who's around.

Best to wait for the right one because life's too short to be wasted on just someone.

An African proverb state, "Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you marry, close one eye."

Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don't let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or a low self-esteem make you blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don't fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren't really that important.

Once you decide to commit to someone, over time, his or her flaws, vulnerabilities, pet peeves, and differences will become more obvious. If you love your mate and want the relationship to grow and evolve, you've got to learn how to close one eye and not let every little thing bother you.

You and your mate have many different expectations, emotional needs, values, dreams, weaknesses, and strengths. You are two unique individual children of God who have decided to share a life together.

Neither one of you is perfect, but are you perfect for each other?

Do you bring out the best in each other?

Do you compliment and compromise with each other, or do you compete, compare and control?

What do you bring to the relationship?

Do you bring past relationships, past hurt, past mistrust, past pain?

You can't take someone to the altar to alter him or her. You can't make someone love you or make someone stay. If you develop self-esteem, spiritual discernment, and "a life" you won't find yourself making someone else responsible for your happiness or responsible for your pain. Manipulation, control, jealousy, neediness, and selfishness are not the ingredients of a thriving, healthy, loving and lasting relationship. Seeking status, sex, and security are the wrong reasons to be in a relationship.

What keeps a relationship strong?

  • communication
  • intimacy
  • a sense of humor
  • sharing household tasks
  • some getaway time without business or children
  • daily exchanges (a meal, shared activity, a hug, a call, a touch, a note)
  • sharing common goals and interests
  • giving each other space to grow without feeling insecure
  • giving each other a sense of belonging and assurances of commitment
  • asking God to be the center of your relationship

If these qualities are missing, the relationship will erode as resentment, withdrawal, abuse, neglect, dishonesty and pain replace thepassion.

"As long as we have memories, yesterday remains. As long as we have hope, tomorrow awaits. As long as we have friendship, today is beautiful."

Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, and the romance in a relationship and find out that you still care for that person.

Friday, May 18, 2007

I'm Hooked!

I was on leave yesterday to settle some personal matters. Since I managed to settle them quite early, took the chance to visit an old friend and had lunch with her at City Square.

Before I left, we dropped by at a store that sells VCD and DVD and she introduced me to Grey's Anotomy. I was skeptical as I never had the chance to follow the series. But then she assured me that I am going to love it. According to her, if you like Desperate Housewives, you will definitely love Grey's Anotomy. So, I took her words and bought seasons 1 & 2.

True enough... the series are just awesome. I'm hooked and my eyes were glued on the TV all night long. Told my daughter that if she wants to watch her cartoons, she can watch it at the living room. Tonite it's mama's turn to use the DVD player.

By the way, it was just not me alone. My husband, who like me, was skeptical initially, was also hooked. We kept watching until almost 2am. It was with reluctance that I had to switch of the TV and DVD player last night.. or rather, this morning.

Now I can't wait to go home and continue where we left off ....

Monday, May 14, 2007

To UMI, With Lots of Love

Yesterday, after finished talking on the phone with my mum, I felt the urge to cry and well... cry I did.

I guess I have not been a good daughter for quite a while. So many things happened and somehow it affected my relationship with my mum. It is not like what it used to be before. And the sad part is.. I have not done much to rectify it.

Even though she has never said it directly to me, I know my mum wishes that my life could be better. I can sense it from the tone of her voice and from the look in her eyes.

Someone said to me that a mother's love has no boundaries and no conditions. I agree with that. My mum never failed me.. not even once. She was always there whenever I needed her... regardless for whatever reason.

But then, it is sad to say that I am not able to do the same thing to her. I cannot match whatever she did to me.... not even close. I know I broke her heart countless times. I know she had, on many occasions, cried because of me. And I know she used to worry, and still worry about me.

Umi, maybe I am not very good in showing it but the fact is, I love you very much. I wish things are different and I wish I know how to communicate with you better. I have been keeping so many things to myself for so long that now I don't know where to start.

I know I have not been a very good daughter and I have hurt your feelings so many times but trust me, they were unintentional. If I could, hurting your feelings would be the last thing on earth that I would do.

Umi, there's no word in this world that can describe how much I love you, respect you and proud of you. I may not be able to show it but I know deep down in your heart, you know how much I love you.

Happy Mother's Day Umi.

Friday, May 11, 2007


At about 3am I received an sms from a friend saying that his brother, Zul, who happens to be a good friend of mine passed away. Even though I expected this to happen.. I was still shocked. I called my sister and I cried. I called his brother and I cried. And I continued crying after that. His demise makes me think about how short and precious life is. You never know when your time will come.

Sometime in October last year, he was diagnosed with a stage 4 colon cancer. The doctor predicted that he had about 6 months to live.. and true enough... he lasted that long.

Zul was somebody who led a healthy lifestyle. He was active in sports, didn't smoke and didn't drink. But still.. ajal waits for no one. When your time comes no matter how healthy you are, you till succumb to it.

It's so sad to talk about Zul in past tense. I really admired his courage. He was an example of somebody who keeps fighting until his last breath. He redha with what happened to him and tried his best to stay alive.

I know it is sad to see him go bt as his brother said in his sms to me, 'Zul dah tak sakit'.

ZUL, may you rest in peace. Semuga Zul ditempatkan bersama-sama orang yang beriman. Alfatihah....