Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Forgive and Forget

"The stupid neither forgive nor forget; the naive forgive and forget; the wise forgive but do not forget."--Thomas Szasz, 1920

If I base on the quote above, then I guess I am among the wise ones. I forgive but I do not forget.

Sometimes I wish I can just let go and forget whatever that happened for not being able to forget can sometimes have its side effects. In most cases, it will result in losing trust. And, as we know, once we lose the trust, it is difficult to gain it back.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Reality Bites

Sometimes the best decision made at one point of time may not be the best decision after all. And that thought has been bugging me quite a lot lately.

I have come to realize that I made a mistake by letting my heart and my emotion control my decision. And now, I guess I have to live with it. It's not easy for me to admit this but I know I can't go on living in my own make-believe world.

Reality bites and it leaves marks too. That is one valuable lesson that I learned.

Monday, January 29, 2007

Wall and Trust

"Sometimes we put up walls. Not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to knock them down." ~ anonymous

I guess the quote describes me well.

I am not the type of person who can easily get friendly with people. I am quite conscious and I take time to trust people.

Past experiences taught me to be more careful when dealing with people especially in matters concerning feelings. That's why I have the walls around me. As long as I am inside the wall, I will be guarded and safe. Only the few privileged ones are allowed to come in.

I guess it is better to be this way than dealing with bruised heart. The more you open up to people, the more you are exposed to being hurt.

Monday, January 15, 2007

2007 Horoscope for Pisces

Sometimes it is quite interesting to read what the horoscope says about us.

I happened to browse a few website and below are some of my findings. Of course some are quite straight forward but then some, I think, are written to confuse people, or at least to confuse me.
You turn a brand new leaf this year. You become more mature and learn from past mistakes. You will meet some interesting people and one of them might just become a love interest. Spiritually, you will feel especially blessed and protected this year. Even when you stumble you will get up and continue without any major brusing. You will get rid of those who have disappointed you in the past. You will do best when you keep certain aspects of you life under lock and key. Be yourself and let go of all things toxic. You and only you will rule your mind and body in the coming year so it's up to you to make the best of it.
Pisces 2007 - Astrology Forecast
2007 is a very important year regarding your career, recognition and social status. You worked hard in 2006, and you will continue with this custom throughout 2007. The difference is that now you obtain recognition and you will constantly be in the limelight. People will appreciate your efforts, you will expand your authority and power and you will be permanently surrounded by chance and success, eventually prosperous business.One area you should worry about this year is money. Expensive trips, redundancies, useless items, all these contribute to your losses. If you can’t manage all these, you will end up calculating your balance and realising that your expenses are higher than your income. However, a promotion is highly probable at your job, as one of your bosses appreciates all your hard work and encourages you to keep working as efficiently but from a higher-up position.
Pisces" is the mutable water element sign. "pisces" is termed as the dreaming sun sign. Pisces is usually dubbed as "fish". They are called as the most matured of all sun signs. They are not only great dreamers but also idealists. This is a romantic and poetic sun-sign. The persons who are born within the time period of 20th February to 20th March are "pisces" people. These "Pisceans" are imaginative, sensitive, compassionate, kind, selfless, unworldly, intuitive and sympathetic. The "pisces" persons are escapists and idealists. They consist of innumerable sub- personalities. They are impractical, vague, manipulative, secretive, confused, weak-willed, immoral and greedy.

2007 will focus on education, travel, in-laws and legal matters. These above mentioned matters will be having a smooth sail throughout the year, especially in the first quarter of 2007. But things should not be taken for granted. Even great situations should be handled with lots of caution. If you are organizing educational activities, travels or rearranging your legal affairs you should delay these affairs for more auspicious times. Your relationship with an in-law might become confused for one reason or another. Unexpected gains will come your way through numerous avenues of life. This is a good time for investments and innovative ventures.

This is a period of major illumination in your life. Spiritual enlightenment is diffused in your life-cycle tremendously. The infusion of spiritual energies will provide you peace and solace. This energy will reach a high point by the month of September. A new person who steps in your life this year may radically alter your own approach to relationships. Even the way in which your life revolves might change.

There might be sudden difficulties on the health front, particularly to do with the nervous system. There will a steady flow of finances throughout the year. All "Piscean-s" beware of all the altercations in your life.

Thursday, January 11, 2007


Sometimes I feel so empty inside. It's like I don't know what is my purpose of living.

I'm sure GOD created each and everyone of us with a purpose. It's just that sometimes I'm not very sure what mine is. I thought I knew but when I think about it over, I feel so confused.

Thursday, January 4, 2007

My Little Princess

Nothing in this world means more to me than my little Princess... Puteri Ellixafira a.k.a Ellix. Just look at these. Don't you just fell in love with her?

By the way, she was around 11 months when these were taken. She's 5 plus now (it's more like 5 going 13)

Ellix is five plus and here are some 10 facts and info about her that I would like to share:

  1. She can't sleep without her 'Jack' and she prefers the old and smelly ones (she has 5, by the way).
  2. She wished that she is older so that she can sleep late like adults.
  3. She can watch cartoons (and the reruns) for hours and hours without feeling tired.
  4. She still hasn't developed the tastebuds for nasi with lauk-pauk. Still prefers hers with butter. Infact she prefers everything with it pasta, bread, etc.
  5. She thinks she's English and prefers to communicate only in English. She only speaks Malay with maids and those who she knows can't speak English.
  6. She likes to tell jokes because she wants people to laugh and be happy. She thinks people will like her more when they are happy.
  7. She loves water. Can spend hours in the swimming pool...or even bath tubs.
  8. She has a 'boyfriend' by the name of Mika. But now she doesn't like him too much as he has another girl. (Hmmm... girls be be girls...)
  9. She refused to learn how to drive go-karts when asked by her abah. According to her, go-karts are only for boys. But, she doesn't mind being the umbrella girl...
  10. She keeps asking her mama and abah to get her an adik so that she can have somebody to play with.

Tuesday, January 2, 2007

New Year...New Resolutions?

Happy New Year!! Good bye 2006 and welcome 2007.

Looking back, 2006 had been a trying year for me. So many things happened that sometimes I wished I can forget that some of them ever happened. But I guess what happened had made me a much stronger and wiser person.

I hope 2007 will be a better year for me. There are so many things that I hope for but most of all I hope that:

  1. I will be much stronger emotionally
  2. I will be much healthier
  3. I will be blessed with a happy family

And, of course not forgetting that I'm also hoping against all odds that;

  1. I will be able to lose at least 10kg
  2. I will get an increment that will move me to a higher income tax bracket
  3. I will discover a fountain of youth that makes me look look younger each day (anyway, I stop counting my age when I turned 29)

Anyway, get real Nana....