Saturday, December 30, 2006

Happy Birthday Dear!

Today is hubby's birthday. Last night we (ellix and I) waited until midnight to surprise him with his birthday cake. And then this morning, my MIL called and invited us for lunch at SACC Mall.

To my dear hubby, Happy Birthday to you. My prayers are always with you. I wish you happiness always.

Monday, December 18, 2006

Abah in Memory

Today is Abah's 66th birtday and it has been exactly 6 years since Abah passed away. After 1 year and 3 months of battling over colon cancer, Abah finally rest in peace on his 60th birthday.

I feel so guilty as lately I seem to spend very little time in remembering Abah. I seem to be engrossed with my own matters that I have been spending less time to 'sedekah' ayat-ayat Quran and prayers for Abah.

Abah, if you can hear me, I just want to say how sorry I am. It's not that I forget about you but somehow in going through my day to day life, I seem to be drifted away from you.

I dreamed about you about 4 nights ago. In my dream, you came to me and looked at me with a sad expression on your face, saying nothing.

When I woke up, I felt very sad inside. I keep wondering what is the meaning of my dream? Is Abah trying to tell me how he feels about me? Is he upset with me for not putting aside my time to remember him? Or is he sad with what's going on with my life now?

Abah, to be honest, I do miss you. Infact, I miss you a lot. Many times, especially when I have problem, I wished that you are still around. Somehow I have a feeling that things would be different if you are still around.

Tears welled in my eyes as I'm writing this. I have not cried for you for a long time, not since the day you passed away. That was the end of it. I guess I have cried enough. I cried when I received news news about you suffering from cancer, which was already at stage 4 when it was discovered. I cried when you went for your operations. I cried when I saw your frail body lying on the bed. I cried when taking care of you and saw how cancer destroyed your self esteem. I cried seeing how you suffer for one year and 3 months. And above all, I cried for being so helpless and not able to help you.

Somehow, today, I feel like crying again. It's not grieving for a father who had passed away, but grieving for a daughter who refused to acknowledge that she actually had not done anough for her father when he was around. I cried for a daughter who did not tell her father how much she loved him and how much she idolized him. I cried for a daughter who used to distance herself from her father because she was not able to cope with the reality of life. I cried for a daughter who did not seem to make her father proud of her.

Abah, I hope you can hear me now. I just want to tell you how much I love you and how much I miss you. May you rest in peace and may Allah bless your soul forever.

Al fatihah.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Lumut and Melaka

Phew, these last 3,4 weeks had been very very hectic for me. I had to organize 2 retreats:- 1 for the operations and management staff and the other one for the academic.

Boleh lah relax sikit for a few days before start balik dengan my next big task... Performance Appraisal Exercise.

Operations Workshop 2006 (2-5 Dec):
Swiss Garden, Damai Laut, Lumut
78 Participants
I would say it was a good session. We managed to squeeze some budget to include some teambuilding session (led by En. Rosli of Dale Carnegie). As usual.. I had to terkejar here and there. Luckily I had a good team of repertoire and secretariat to support me. Thanks a lot guys. Would not be able to make it without your help.

Most staff enjoyed the activities planned out for them. Some even mentioned that we should just concentrate on the teambuilding activities and forget about all the presentations. Well... that is not for me to decide. I am just carrying out the request/instruction given.

The karaoke session was also great. Tak disangka-sangka, ramai yang ada hidden talents. We really had fun. And as finale, the President managed to come back from his trip to Penang just before we were about to leave the karaoke room. managed to let the hotel staff to hold for a few minutes and let the big boss sing the finale song... 'My Way'. Never thought that prof could sing so well.

Infusing Thinking Skills Workshop (8-10 Dec):
Melaka Watercity Resort, Ayer Keroh
80 Participants

Based on the comments, most participants were satisfied with the workshop. The sessions planned for them enable them to learn and share what they know. However, I wish the same can be said about the Hotel.

Well, Melaka Watercity resort is a nice place actually. But, the food there is terrible. Even the service was bad. I was very disappointed with the food and services provided, so much so that I had to lodge official complaint with the management. Food tak cukup, tasteless and worst of all, more that 1/4 of our staff had diarrhea. Habis all the medicine yang we all bawak in the First Aid Kit.

Even though penat organizing all those programs but when I received the thank you's from my clients (i.e. the bosses who requested the programs), I feel a sense of accomplishment. Despite of some hiccups here and there, the programs still went quite smoothly and they achieved their objectives.

Thursday, November 9, 2006

The Meaning of Love

I was browsing the Internet ( when I bumped into this:

If you are looking for love, would you recognize it if you found it?
Can you tell the difference between love and infatuation?
Between love and attraction?
Between love and sexual desire?
Between love and friendship?
Between sex and intimacy?
Between a good relationship and one that is only pleasurable?

Now I wonder.....

Thursday, November 2, 2006

A Holiday Worth Waiting For

I wish I don't have to be back to work yet.

The 6 days spent in Penang was wonderful. We had a blast! Holiday Inn Penang was a great place for families. The room was nice and facilities are great. Ellix loves the kidspot. Once she discovered the place, she basically doesn't want to go elsewhere, except the beach and swimming pool. Even her meals were taken there.

Come to think of it, I think I would enjoy it as much as she does too, if I am her age. She got to do handicrafts, arts, etc, etc. She made a bead-necklace for her and a handpainted mug for me.

Since ellix is basically taken care of at the kidspot, that left my husband and I some time to ourselves. We could go to places that Ellix would compaint (because it is not comfy enough) without having to worry about her.

Too bad the holiday is over.

Sunday, October 22, 2006

A Box of Kisses

This is quite a touching story by unknown author. It makes me become more appreciative of what I have. Sometimes a simple gift can mean a lot because it comes from the heart.

Here it goes.

The story goes that some time ago, a man punished his 3-year-old daughter for wasting a roll of gold wrapping paper. Money was tight and he became infuriated when the child tried to decorate a box to put under the Christmas tree.

Nevertheless, the little girl brought the gift to her father the next morning and said, "This is for you, Daddy."

He was embarrassed by his earlier overreaction, but his anger flared again when he found the box was empty.

He yelled at her, "Don't you know that when you give someone a present, there's supposed to be something inside it?"

The little girl looked up at him with tears in her eyes and said,"Oh, Daddy, it is not empty. I blew kisses into the box. All for you, Daddy."

The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little girl, and he begged for her forgiveness.
It is told that the man kept that gold box by his bed for years and whenever he was discouraged, he would take out an imaginary kiss and remember the love of the child who had put it there.

In a very real sense, each of us as humans have been given a gold container filled with unconditional love and kisses from our children, friends, family and God. There is no more precious possession anyone could hold.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Counting the Days....

Today is the 25th of Ramadhan. How time flies. Thank God this Ramadhan seems like a breeze to me. Sedar tak sedar, next week is already Hari Raya.

Since my mother is in Mekah performing her yearly Umrah (won't be back until the second day), we will be spending first day of Raya in Kuala Kangsar. Insyaalah, will be going there on Sunday. As Hari Raya most probably will fall on Tuesday, that leaves us with one day to jalan-jalan around Kuala.

After Raya prayer and function kat Istana, we will shoot off to Penang. Tak sabar rasanya nak go for holiday...the much needed holiday. The hotel rooms is booked and paid and our things, even though not being packed yet, are ready. I hope the 6 days 5 nights holiday in Penang will be worth waiting for!

6 more days to go!!!!

Monday, September 18, 2006

The House of 1000 Mirrors

This is a Japanese folktale about how how we live our life. How people treat us and behave towards us is actually a reflection of who we are towards them.

Here goes...

Long ago in a small, far away village, there was a place known as the House of 1000 Mirrors. A small, happy little dog learned of this place and decided to visit. When he arrived, he bounced happily up the stairs to the doorway of the house. He looked through the doorway with his ears lifted high and his tail wagging as fast as it could. To his great surprise, he found himself staring at 1000 other happy little dogs with their tails wagging just as fast as his. He smiled a great smile, and was answered with 1000 great smiles just as warm and friendly. As he left the house, he thought to himself, "This is a wonderful place. I will come back and visit it often."

In this same village, another little dog, who was not quite as happy as the first one, decided to visit the house. He slowly climbed the stairs and hung his head low as he looked into the door. When he saw the 1000 unfriendly looking dogs staring back at him, he growled at them and was horrified to see 1000 little dogs growling back at him. As he left, he thought to himself, "That is a horrible place, and I will never go back there again."

All the faces in the world are mirrors. What kind of reflections do you see in the faces of the people you meet?

Tuesday, September 5, 2006

The 90/10 Principle

The 90/10 Principle by Stephen Covey

Discover the 90/10 Principle. It will change your life.

What is the 90/10 Principle?
10% of life is made up of what happens to you.
90% of life is decided by how you react.

What does this mean?
We really have no control over 10% of what happens to us.
We cannot stop the car from breaking down.
The plane will be late arriving, which throws our whole schedule off. A driver may cut us off in traffic.

We have no control over this 10%.The other 90% is different. You determine the other 90%. How? By your reaction. You cannot control a red light, but you can control your reaction. Don't let people fool you; YOU can control how you react.

Let's use an example.

You are eating breakfast with your family. Your daughter knocks over a cup of coffee onto your business shirt. You have no control over what just what happened. What happens when the next will be determined by how you react? You curse. You harshly scold your daughter for knocking the cup over. She breaks down in tears. After scolding her, you turn to your spouse and criticize her for placing the cup too close to the edge of the table. A short verbal battle follows. You storm upstairs and change your shirt.
Back downstairs, you find your daughter has been too busy crying to finish breakfast and get ready for school. She misses the bus. Your spouse must leave immediately for work. You rush to the car and drive your daughter to school.
Because you are late, you drive 40 miles an hour in a 30 mph speed limit. After a 15-minute delay and throwing $60 traffic fine away, you arrive at school. Your daughter runs into the building without saying goodbye. After arriving atthe office 20 minutes late, you find you forgot your briefcase.
Your day has started terribly. As it continues, it seems to get worse and worse. You look forward to coming home, When you arrive home, you find a small wedge in your relationship with your spouse and daughter.Why? Because of how you reacted in the morning.

Why did you have a bad day?
A) Did the coffee cause it?
B) Did your daughter cause it?
C) Did the policeman cause it?
D) Did you cause it?

The answer is D.

You had no control over what happened with the coffee. How you reacted in those 5 seconds is what caused your bad day. Here is what could have and should havehappened. Coffee splashes over you. Your daughter is about to cry. You gently say, "It's ok honey, you just need, to be more careful next time." Grabbing a towel, you rush upstairs. After grabbing a new shirt and your briefcase, you come back down in time to look through the window and see your child getting on thebus. She turns and waves. You arrive 5 minutes early and cheerfully greet the staff. Your boss comments on how good the day you are having.

Notice the difference?Two different scenarios.Both started the same.Both ended different.Why? Because of how you REACTED.

You really do not have any control over 10% of what happens. The other 90% was determined by your reaction.

Here are some ways to apply the 90/10principle.

If someone says something negative about you, don't be a sponge. Let the attack roll off like water on glass. You don't have to let the negativecomment affects you! React properly and it will not ruin your day. A wrong reaction could result in losing a friend, being fired, getting stressed out etc.

How do you react if someone cuts you off in traffic? Do you lose your temper? Pound on the steering wheel? A friend of mine had the steering wheel fall off! Do you curse? Does your blood pressure skyrocket? Do you try and bump them? WHO CARES if you arrive ten seconds later at work? Why letthe cars ruin your drive?

Remember the 90/10 principle, and do not worry about it.

You are told you lost your job. Why lose sleep and get irritated? It will work out.Use your worrying energy and time into finding another job.
The plane is late; it is going to mangle your schedule for the day. Why take out your frustrationon the flight attendant? She has no control over what is going on. Use your time to study, get to know the other passenger. Why get stressed out? It will justmake things worse.

Now you know the 90-10 principle. Apply it and you will be amazed at the results. You will lose nothing if you try it.

The 90-10 principle is incredible. Very few know and apply this principle.

The result? Millions of people are suffering from undeserved stress, trials, problems and heartache. There never seem to be a success in life. Bad days follow bad days.Terrible things seem to be constantly happening. There is constant stress, lack of joy, and broken relationships. Worry consumes time. Anger breaks friendshipsand life seems dreary and is not enjoyed to the fullest. Friends are lost. Life is a bore and often seems cruel.

Does this describe you? If so, do not be discouraged. You can be different!Understand and apply the 90/10 principle. It will change your life.

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Happy Birthday Malaysia!

Happy 49th Birthday Malaysia!!

I am proud to be a Malaysian and there's no other place that I would rather be except Malaysia. We should feel blessed that Malaysia is a country where all races, creeds and religions can live harmoniously. We should be proud that Malaysia can sustain herself through all the crisis, regarless whether economically or politically without much major conflicts.

To all Malaysians, let's kibarkan jalur gemilang!!!

Friday, August 18, 2006

All Time Favorites

If you ask me who is my favorite actor/actress, I have to say that it's Meg Ryan. I know she's not a Diva or something like that but I like her acting. I can watch her movies over and over again without feeling bored... especially when it comes to romantic comedies.

Here are five reasons why I love Meg Ryan:

Sleepless in Seattle is a light romantic comedy inspired by the 1957 film An Affair to Remember. Tom Hanks stars as widower and single father Sam. When Sam's son, Jonah (Ross Malinger), calls into a talk radio program looking for a new mother, Sam ends up getting on the phone and laments about his lost love. Thousands of miles away, Annie (Meg Ryan) hears the program and immediately falls in love with Sam, despite the fact that she has never met him and that she is engaged to humdrum Walter (Bill Pullman). Believing they are meant to be together, Annie sets out for Seattle to meet Sam.

City of Angels is about an angel who must decide if love is more important than eternal peace. Seth (Nicholas Cage) is an angel who hovers over the city of Los Angeles, listening to people's thoughts, observing their lives, and guiding them to the next world when they die. While Seth and his fellow angels try to offer comfort to people as they can, they are discouraged from direct contact with humans and are usually invisible to them. While at a hospital, Seth sees Maggie (Meg Ryan), a dedicated heart surgeon who attempts to save the life of a patient Seth was to call upon. Maggie is distraught after the patient passes, and her agony touches something inside the reserved Seth; he finds himself falling in love with her, and he decides to make himself visible so he can communicate with her. As Maggie gets to know the strange visitor in black who has suddenly appeared in her life, she finds herself torn between her new feelings for Seth and her attachment to her fiancé Jordan, a fellow doctor. Seth, on the other hand, has a serious choice to make -- between immortality and giving it up in order to know both the pleasures and pains of being a human being.

When Harry Met Sally is about two strangers (Billy Crystaland Meg Ryan), both newly graduated from the University of Chicago, share a car trip from Chicago to New York, where they are both going to make their way. During the trip, they discuss aspects of their characters and their lives, eventually deciding it is impossible for men and women to be "just friends." They arrive in New York and go their separate ways. They meet a few years later on an airplane and Harry reveals he is married. They meet again at a bookstore a few years after that where Harry reveals he is now divorced. From that point on, the two form a friendship. Eventually their closeness results in their respective best friends (played by Carrie Fisher and Bruno Kirby) meeting and falling in love with each other. At a New Year's Eve party Harry and Sally confront the complex tangle of emotions they feel for each other.

You've Got Mail brings romance and courtship into the electronic age of the World Wide Web via e-mail and chat rooms. Joe Fox (Hanks) and Kathleen Kelly (Ryan) live and work blocks from each other on New York City's Upper West Side. Their lives are practically intertwined. They both shop at the same place, frequent the same coffee shop, and even own competing bookstores on the same street. They also both have significant others of their own. Joe has the overly hyper book editor Patricia Eden, while Kathleen lives with the scholarly newspaper columnist Frank Navasky. Then they meet in a chat room. Though they keep their identities secret (they're known only by screen names "NY152" and "Shopgirl"), they tell each other everything about their lives, including their private feelings, which slowly turn into affection for each other. When Joe decides to open a new branch of his "Foxbooks" chain that risks putting Kathleen's "Shop Around the Corner" out of business, the tension between them escalates. Surely her boutique business will be lost to the conglomerate with a built-in newsstand and coffee bar. When Joe sees Kathleen waiting for him in the restaurant where they agreed to meet up, he puts two and two together, but cannot face her, given their agreement not to reveal each others' names and professions

When a Man Loves a Woman is about a family torn apart by alcoholism and recovering from it. Alice Green (Meg Ryan), a school counselor who has a serious drinking problem. Her husband is Michael (Andy Garcia), an airline pilot. Though she's lighthearted and loving, Alice is often reckless and, when drunk, even neglects her children, nine-year-old daughter Jess from a previous marriage, and four-year-old daughter Casey, whose father is Michael. After an accident, Alice realizes that she has "hit bottom" and goes into a clinic for rehab. When she returns home, she has kicked her addiction and has become independent and strong, and her perfectionist, controlling husband has trouble adjusting. Michael is used to his wife being weak and helpless, and they end up seeing a marriage counselor to recover from Michael's "co-dependency" on Alice's role as an alcoholic.

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Each Day Is A Gift

Today, happen to come across one story that I quite like. I think the story is so sweet. It tells about how we choose to live our life and how to appreciate what we have. Here goes:

Each Day Is A Gift by Author Unknown

The 92-year-old, petite, well-poised and proud lady, who is fully dressed each morning by eight o'clock, with her hair fashionably coifed and makeup perfectly applied, even though she is legally blind, moved to a nursing home today.

Her husband of 70 years recently passed away, making the move necessary.

After many hours of waiting patiently in the lobby of the nursing home, she smiled sweetly when told her room was ready.

As she maneuvered her walker to the elevator, I provided a visual description of her tiny room, including the eyelet sheets that had been hung on her window. "I love it," she stated with the enthusiasm of an eight-year-old having just been presented with a new puppy.

"Mrs. Jones, you haven't seen the room .... just wait."

"That doesn't have anything to do with it," she replied. "Happiness is something you decide on ahead of time. Whether I like my room or not doesn't depend on how the furniture is arranged, it's how I arrange my mind. I already decided to love it. It's a decision I make every morning when I wake up. I have a choice; I can spend the day in bed recounting the difficulty I have with the parts of my body that no longer work, or get out of bed and be thankful for the ones that do. Each day is a gift, and as long as my eyes open I'll focus on the new day and all the happy memories I've stored away, just for this time in my life."

She went on to explain, "Old age is like a bank account, you withdraw from what you've put in. So, my advice to you would be to deposit a lot of happiness in the bank account of memories Thank you for your part in filling my Memory bank. I am still depositing."

And with a smile, she said: "Remember the five simple rules to be happy":
1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less

Friday, August 11, 2006

Wishful Thinking

Have you ever wondered sometimes why your life turns out to be the way it is? What have you done to deserve it? Well, I did and I still do.

I know it is not good to question something that has been given by GOD but sometimes I just cannot help it.

Maybe it's because I have my unfulfilled dreams and wants and they are still there at the back of my mind and inside my heart.

I may sound like I am not grateful for what life has offered me. Well, I am. I always bersyukur for what GOD has given me so far but still... there's a part of me that yearns for more.

I still wish that:

I have peace of heart
I have days are full of smiles
I grow old gracefully
I find happiness
I find contentment
I have good health
I find solace
I have trust
I have love

But most of all, I wish that my dream are fulfilled

Saturday, August 5, 2006

Teambuilding Program

Going for Teambuilding Program in about 2 hours' time and my hubby is not very happy about that. He kept reminding me not to overdo the activities as I had just recovered from my operation.

Well, I can't miss this. Had been planning this program with our new Head ever since I got back from my medical leave. I know this is going to be fun. And if things go well, we are going to adopt this module for all other departments.

A bit scared of the physical activities, though. There will be water activities, which is something that I'm not so keen as I can't swim. And then there will be flying fox...again something that I have never done before and quite scary to me as I'm afraid of height. But then.. there's always the first time for everything. We never know what it feels until we try it.

As long as I take my medication and be careful of what I do, I think things will be alright.

Wednesday, August 2, 2006

Cracked Pot

The story below is quite common. I got it a few times in my email. Anyway, I like this story. It reminds me that each of us has our own unique flaws. Don't be ashamed of it. That is what makes us the way we way.

I'm sure we have also met a lot of cracked pots along the way. I had. Let's take a moment to thank all the cracked pots as they make our life more interesting and beautiful.

Cracked Pot

A water bearer in India had two large pots, one hung on each end of a pole which he carriedacross his neck. One of the pots had a crackin it, and while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water at the endof the long walk from the stream to themaster's house. The cracked pot arrived only half full.

For a full two years this went on daily, with the bearer delivering only one and a half pots full of water in his master's house.

Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments, perfect to the end for which it was made.

But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of what it had been made to do.

After two years of what it perceived to be a bitter failure, itspoke to the water bearer one day by the stream.

"I am ashamed of myself, and I want to apologize to you."
"Why?" asked the bearer. "What are you ashamed of?"
"I have been able, for these past two years, to deliver only half my load because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your master's house. Because of my flaws, you have to do all of this work, and you don't get full value from your efforts," the pot said.

The water bearer felt sorry for the old cracked pot, and in his compassion he said, "As we return to the master's house, I want you to notice the beautiful flowers along the path."

Indeed, as they went up the hill, the old cracked pot took notice of the sun warming the beautiful wild flowers on the side of the path, and this cheered it some.

But at the end of the trail, it still felt bad because it had leaked out half its load, and so again it apologized to the bearer for its failure.

The bearer said to the pot, "Did you notice that there were flowers only on your side of your path, but not on the other pot's side? That's because I have always known about your flaw, and I took advantage of it. I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back from the stream, you've watered them. For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate my master's table. Without you being just the way you are, he would not have this beauty to grace his house."

Moral of the story:
We're all cracked pots. But it's the cracks and flaws we each have that make our lives together so very interesting and rewarding. You've just got to take each person for what they are, and look for the good in them. There is a lot of good out there. There is a lot of good in us !Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be bent out of shape. Remember to appreciate all the different people in your life!

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Back to Work

I'm back to work after 3 weeks of MC. It seems that there are so many things that need to be done. Sabar je lah. Buat yang mana terlarat je lah. Don't want to worry too much.

Luckily when I was not around my assistant was able to handle most of the simple and routine works. Kalau tak teruk jugak. Tambah-tambah the new boss ni (oh yes, our dept has a new head starting from 1 June 2006, just before I went for my operations.. which is a big relief for me as I tak larat nak jadi acting head lama-lama...not for HR!) expects a lot of things from us. And then he has a lot of plans that we need to carry out.

As usuallah.. after long absence from work.. it takes time to get back to full gear again. But then.. don't think I can do that. Have to speed up terus. Time seems too precious now.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Ellix Turned Five

Yesterday my Princess turned five. Both my husband and I were on leave to spend some time with Ellix.

Time flies so fast. It seems not long ago that Ellix was a teeny weeny little baby. She brought so much joy to my life that I swear I will do everything that I possibly can in order to make her happy.

Ellix said she can't wait any longer for her birthday party. She loves parties and most of all she loves receiving birthday presents.

This year, my hubby and I gave her a pair of mickey mouse earings that we bought from Poh Kong, and another set of crystal accessories.... bracelet, necklace, earings and ring. She just loves to dress up.... as I said ...girls...

Monday, July 10, 2006

Family Day

What a tiring day.

I know I shouldn't be going out too soon after the operation, but I cannot help it. I wouldn't miss going to my company's family day as I was among the group of people who initiated the preparation for the day when the idea was first initiated.

It's so good to see so many people enjoying themselves. Too bad that I was not able to stay for long as I realized that I got tired easily. I still have the stitches on, by the way. However, still managed to get my daughter to join the colouring competition, even though she didn't win anything. And, also managed to see the guys having fun in the swimming pool with their water polo games.

Saturday, July 1, 2006

Gifts from the Heart

I gave a piece of my mind to my daughter today for not being appreciative enough with what she has. It makes me wonder whether it was my mistake that she behaves this way. As far as I can remember, I always tell her to be be thankful with what we have and appreciate it because we never know what the future has in store for us.

My hubby said, what do you expect from a 5-year old. But then... nobody is too young or too old to learn, especially on how to be thankful.

Gifts From The Heart
Michael Josephson

According to legend, a young man while roaming the desert came across a spring of delicious crystal-clear water. The water was so sweet he filled his leather canteen so he could bring some back to a tribal elder who had been his teacher. After a four-day journey he presented the water to the old man who took a deep drink, smiled warmly and thanked his student lavishly for the sweet water. The young man returned to his village with a happy heart.

Later, the teacher let another student taste the water. He spat it out, saying it was awful. It apparently had become stale because of the old leather container. The student challenged his teacher: "Master, the water was foul. Why did you pretend to like it?

"The teacher replied, "You only tasted the water. I tasted the gift. The water was simply the container for an act of loving-kindness and nothing could be sweeter.

"I think we understand this lesson best when we receive innocent gifts of love from young children. Whether it's a ceramic tray or a macaroni bracelet, the natural and proper response is appreciation and expressed thankfulness because we love the idea within the gift.

Gratitude doesn't always come naturally. Unfortunately, most children and many adults value only the thing given rather than the feeling embodied in it. We should remind ourselves and teach our children about the beauty and purity of feelings and expressions of gratitude. After all, gifts from the heart are really gifts of the heart.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

It's Happening Soon...

I will be going on leave tomorrow and will check in at SJMC for operation the day after.

To be honest, I am a bit scared. Really, I don't know what to expect. Some people said it's going to hurt very much after the operation. But, some people also said, it's not that bad. Whatever it is, I'm sure it's going to hurt. I just hope that it's bearable.

I put up a brave face in front of everybody. I don't want anybody, not even my husband, to know that I am scared. Come to think of it.. who doesn't. Even though going for operation is something common, but it does not happen to everybody.

Oh God, please make it pass like a breeze.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Better Now Than Later

Went to SJMC a couple of days ago for check up. More than a year ago, my gynae noticed that I have fibroid. According to him it is not harmful and I don't have to operate on it if I don't want to. But then these last couple of weeks I don't feel good and my womb area feels uneasy.

At first when Dr. Delaila (SJMC) checked on me, she didn't notice the fibroid. But then further checking showed that the fibroid is there, hidden by my womb. It's quite big.. almost 10cm x 5.3 cm. Obviously.. it has grown from the last time it was discovered.

She asked me to go for operation as soon as possible.

So, the date was set, I'm going to be operated next friday. I asked the doctor whether I can delay it.. but the answer was... "if you don't want any complications in the future, it is better if you operate on it now, when it is still ok. Why do you want to keep it?"

Well, looks like I don't have much choice. Have to go ahead with it, no matter what.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

What Goes Around, Comes Around

Sometimes you never know what and who may come along your way. That is why it is important for us to remember to be nice to people, no matter who they are, how they look like, what they do, etc.

What Goes Around, Comes Around by Author Unknown

His name was Fleming, and he was a poor Scottish farmer.

One day, while trying to make a living for his family, he heard a cry for help coming from a nearby bog. He dropped his tools and ran to the bog. There, mired to his waist in black muck, was a terrified boy, screaming and struggling to free himself. Farmer Fleming saved the lad from what could have been a slow and terrifying death.

The next day, a fancy carriage pulled up to the Scotsman's sparse surroundings. An elegantly dressed nobleman stepped out and introduced himself as the father of the boy Farmer Fleming had saved.

"I want to repay you," said the nobleman. "You saved my son's life."

"No, I can't accept payment for what I did," the Scottish farmer replied, waving off the offer.

At that moment, the farmer's own son came to the door of the family hovel. "Is that your son?" the nobleman asked.

"Yes," the farmer replied proudly.

"I'll make you a deal. Let me provide him with the level of education my own son will enjoy. If the lad is anything like his father, he'll no doubt grow to be a man we both will be proud of."

And that he did.

Farmer Fleming's son attended the very best schools and in time, he graduated from St. Mary's Hospital Medical School in London, and went on to become known throughout the world as the noted Sir Alexander Fleming, the discoverer of Penicillin.

Years afterward, the same nobleman's son who was saved from the bog was stricken with pneumonia. What saved his life this time?


The name of the nobleman? Lord Randolph Churchill.

His son's name? Sir Winston Churchill.

Someone once said: "What goes around comes around."

Work like you don't need the money.
Love like you've never been hurt.
Dance like nobody's watching.
Sing like nobody's listening.
Live like it's Heaven on Earth.

Friday, June 2, 2006

New Bloke in Town

Thank God. Our head of HR reported duty this morning. I feel so relieved. At least I don't have to act on behalf of the department anymore. From now on it will be handled by somebody else.

I was called by the President just now. He thanked me for covering for the post and asked me to extend my assistance to the new Head as much as possible.

Had the chance to go through details of the department with our new Head. Well, he seems OK. Really hope that we will be able to work well together.

In the afternoon, I was called by the COO. He inquired about our new Head and what I think of him. Well, of course I told him it's too early for me to comment. But, my instinct says that he is OK.

The COO, on a personal note, told me that he wished I am the Head instead of somebody else. But, as usual, I told him "you know what my answer would be. I don't want it."

Let's hope everything will be OK after this.

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Work, Work and Work

Oh my God... I have been swarmed by work. So many things to do and so little time.

I'm feeling the pressure of being the Acting Head of HR. So many issues need to be solved. Bosses pulak duduk asyik panggil. I have told the President so many times to get a permanent Head of Department. I'm just not willing to take up the responsibilities... not in HR. I am not ready to sacrifice my time and myself for the sake of the company.

According to the President, we might get somebody early of next month. I really hope so as I need to go for my operation. I have already postponed it once and I don't think I can wait any longer.

Monday, May 15, 2006

Handwriting On The Wall

I found this story which touches my heart. Of course my daughter didn't write on the wall, but sometimes when she gave me her drawings (which thank God happen to be on the paper), my heart will be overflooded with love and joy.

Handwriting on the Wall

A weary mother returned from the store, lugging groceries through the kitchen door. Awaiting her arrival was her eight-year-old son, eager to relate what his younger brother had done.
"While I was out playing and Dad was on a call, T.J. took his crayons and wrote on the wall! It's on the new paper you just hung in the den. I told him you'd be mad at having to do it again."

She let out a moan and furrowed her brow.

"Where is your little brother right now?"

She emptied her arms and with a purposeful stride, she marched to his closet where he had gone to hide. She called his full name as she entered his room. He trembled with fear -- he knew that meant doom!

For the next ten minutes, she ranted and raved about the expensive wallpaper and how she had saved. Stressed over all the work it would take to repair, she condemned his actions and total lack of care. The more she scolded, the madder she got. Then stomped from his room, totally distraught!

She headed for the den to confirm her fears. When she saw the wall, her eyes flooded with tears.

The message she read pierced her soul with a dart. It said, "I love Mommy," surrounded by a heart.

Well, the wallpaper remained, just as she found it, with an empty picture frame hung to surround it.

A reminder to her, and indeed to all, take time to read the handwriting on the wall!!!

Tuesday, May 9, 2006

Fun Weekend

Weekend was great.

Hubby's cousin came over with her husband and children. Ellix was very happy to spend some time with other kids.

I prepared some food and had picnic (brunch) by the pool side. Much to my delight... all the food habis. Tak sangka pulak the simple brunch menu of salad, spagheti with mushroom and asparagus and roast chicken can be so yummy. Infact, the sausages prepared for the kids pun tak cukup and I had to go upstairs and cooked some more.

It was quite difficult to get the kids out of the pool. But after 3 hours of swimming, I had no choice but to force them. They finally got out after I promised to let them watch cartoon, uninterrupted!

Tak sangka pulak simple activities macam ni can be so much fun.

Saturday, April 29, 2006


I find it so annoying when people are being prejudice.. doesn't matter if it's prejudice against race, colour, gender, financial background, family background, weight, height, etc. What right do they have to judge people? What they see or know is just the outside. The question is do they know the person from the inside? Do they know the person personally?

Lately, there's this statement made by PAS MP regarding Divorced Ladies which I find so annoying. "I've seen these single mothers when I attend gatherings or parties. They didn't look like they were sad about getting divorced. Instead, they seemed to be gatal"

How disgusting for somebody who is in that position to say such words.

Does he expect these ladies to be sad and full of self-pity about their marital status? So what is they are divorced. That is fact of life that some of us have to face with. Being divorced does not make you less or a woman. Being divorced does not give the rights for other people to label you as gatal.

Mr MP, I think it's time for you to look and evaluate yourself! We do not need prejudices like this, not in Kelantan, not in Malaysia and not in this world.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Love And Time

Love and Time

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love.

Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment.

When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said, "Richness, can you take me with you?"
Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel.

"Vanity, please help me!"
"I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you."
"Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you."

It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going.

When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder, Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.
"Time?" asked Love.
"But why did Time help me?"

Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."

Tuesday, April 4, 2006

Between Family and Ambition

I consulted a few friends about the offer I received from the Management. Most of my friends advised me to go for it and accept the offer. It's high time that I take up something substantial. It's not that I don't have the credential nor the competencies to do it.

The problem is (which most people don't know,) is that my husband is not very happy when I told him that I have to take up the additional tasks at the office. He told me that I can accept it as long as it does not jeopardize my time with the family. I think that is something that is difficult for me to do. I'm very sure that somehow or rather the time I have for the family is affected. Infact, it is happening now. Lately, i have been spending more and more time at the office and have been going home late.

I think this is the one of the dilemmas that most married working females have to face, especially those with young family. Most often we are torn in between family and work. Of course family is important to us but at the same time, we have our ambitions to. We want to go up the corporate ladder and be somebody significant in the organization. But, that will not happen without the support from the family, especially from our significant half.

I would say that men are lucky. Nobody really question them if they seem to spend more attention to their work. It's normal for men to be that way. They are supposed to provide for the family... therefore, they are expected to work hard.

Well... it looks like my initial decision to decline the offer is right after all. Maybe this is the sacrifice that I have to make. I have to forget about my ambition for the time being and concentrate on my family first.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Additional Tasks

Our head of HR is resigning and the President asked me to be the Acting Head while waiting for the new Head to be recruited.

I was, of course, reluctant, to take up the responsibilities. I am quite new to the department and there are a lot of things that I am still trying to get myself familiarize with. I am not even well-versed with some of the procedures. Lagipun HR is not a very favourable department and from what I can see, the staff has a somewhat negative impression about the department.

But then, I don't have a choice. The top management still insisted that be the Acting Head jugak. They promised that they will try to recruit the new Head ASAP. I really hope so because I just have a feeling that it's going to be tough on me. Banyak sangat issues that we have to address:- the integration, salary review, disgruntled employees, etc, etc.

I just have a feeling that I'm going to be extremely busy after this. Even my own tasks are already a lot. Now have to cover for the Head. What to do...

Saturday, March 25, 2006

The Shark Story

As I was browing through the internet, I came across this story which, I find to be inspiring and motivating. It's about challenges and how we overcome them to become a better person. So, here goes:

The Japanese have always loved fresh fish. But the waters close to Japan have not held many fish for decades. So to feed the Japanese population, fishing boats got bigger and went farther than ever.

The farther the fishermen went, the longer it took to bring in the fish. If the return trip took more than a few days, the fish were not fresh.The Japanese did not like the taste.

To solve this problem, fishing companies installed freezers on their boats.They would catch the fish and freeze them at sea. Freezers allowed the boats to go farther and stay longer. However, the Japanese could taste the difference between fresh and frozen and they did not like frozen fish. The frozen fish brought a lower price.

So fishing companies installed fish tanks. They would catch the fish and stuff them in the tanks, fin to fin. After a little thrashing around, the fish stopped moving. They were tired and dull, but alive. Unfortunately, the Japanese could still taste the difference. Because the fish did not move for days, they lost their fresh-fish taste. The Japanese preferred the lively taste of fresh fish, not sluggish fish.

So how did Japanese fishing companies solve this problem? How do they get fresh-tasting fish to Japan? If you were consulting the fish industry, what would you recommend?

How Japanese Fish Stay Fresh:
To keep the fish tasting fresh, the Japanese fishing companies still put the fish in the tanks. But now they add a small shark to each tank. The shark eats a few fish, but most of the fish arrive in a very lively state. The fish are challenged.

Have you realized that some of us are also living in a pond but most of the time tired & dull, so we need a Shark in our life to keep us awake and moving? Basically in our lives Sharks are new challenges to keep us active and taste better... The more intelligent, persistent and competent you are, the more you enjoy a challenge.

"If your challenges are the correct size, and if you are steadily conquering those challenges, you are Conqueror. You think of your challenges and get energized. You are excited to try new solutions. "

Saturday, March 18, 2006

I Wonder ....

Sometimes I wonder what is my purpose of living. I have been asking this question for so many years now and to be honest, I haven't found the answer yet.

I wonder what I have achieved so far. What will people remember about me when I am no longer around? Will my daughter remember me as the best mom that anybody can ask for? Will my husband remember me as the most loving wife any husband can dream about? Will my employer remember me as the model employee any employer can ever choose? Will my mother remember me as the obedient daughter that any parent can hope to have? Will my brothers and sister remember me as the reliable sister that any sibling can wish for? I don't know whether I will ever find the answers to my questions... but striving towards becoming one I will.... even though I know very well that nobody is perfect.

Thursday, March 9, 2006

Ciri-Ciri Wanita Melalui Tarikh Lahir

Wanita api dilahirkan di bawah lambang Aries(21 Mac-20 April), Leo(24 Julai-23 Ogos) dan Sagittarius( 23 November-21 Disember ).
1. Dilahirkan sebagai pemimpin
2. Mempunyai kekuatan diri dan biasanya enggan menerima pendapat orang lain walaupun ianya benar.
3. Seorang yang artistik dan sukar dijangka, tetapi biasanya romantis dan tidak pemalu.
4. Mempunyai personaliti suka menguasai dan mendominasi tetapi boleh mengimbangi sifat-sifat ini dengan sikap yang pemurah, mesra dan menunjukkan sifat yang mendalam terhadap sesuatu yang disukainya.
5. Suka berterus terang dan tidak berselindung menyebabkan orang yang dikasihi mersa sedih dan terhiris.
6. Jujur dan mahu hubungan peribadi berjalan dengan lancar. Wanita api harus diberikan ruang yang cukup luas untuk menjadikan perhubungan itu terus berkesan.
7. Tidak keberatan untuk beralih arah jika berasa tertekan.

Wanita tanah dilahirkan di bawah zodiak Taurus(21 April-20Mei) , Virgo(24Ogos- 23 September) dan Capricon(22 Disember-20 Januari).
1. Seorang yang boleh dijangka, berwibawa dan praktikal.
2. Penyabar dan bertolak ansur, mempunyai kehendak dalaman dari segi emosi dan material.
3. Semangat produktif dan gigih yang disertai dengan siksp berhati-hati menjadikan wanita tanah berkemampuan mencapai kejayaan dalam perniagaan.
4. Kebijaksanaan dan kepintaran yang diperolehi sering tersembunyi oleh air muka semulajadi yang pendiam dan tenang.
5. Sifat marah yang terkawal serta keperluan untuk keteguhan dan kawalan sering terbawa-bawa dalam perhubungan yang amat konservatif, serius dan sederhana.
6. Tidak mudah menunjukkan sifat penyayang tetapi wanita tanah adalah seorang kekasih yang setia dan berwibawa.

Wanita angin dilahirkan di bawah lambang Gemini(22 Mei-21 Jun), Libra(24 September-23 Oktober) dan Aquarius(21 Januari-19 Februari).
1. Berterus terang, berminda aktif dan gemar mencari kepelbagaian dalam setiap aspek kehidupan.
2. Berfikiran terbuka, mempunyai daya imaginasi dan inovatif, bagi mereka segalanya boleh dicapai.
3. Bergaya, tenang dan tidak cerewet serta mempunyai keinginan semulajadi untuk mengamalkan sikap diplomasi dan saling bekerjasama bersungguh-sungguh.
4. Sanggup mengorbankan kehendak atau idea mereka sendiri demi mencapai keharmonian dan mengelakkan perselisihan atau konflik.
5. sentiasa gigih untuk mendapatkan cinta yang terunggul, untuk berkonfrantasi.
6. Kurang cenderung untuk menyampaikan perasaan sebenar yang terpendam dalam hati mereka.

Wanita air terdiri daripada mereka yang lahir di bawah zodiak Cancer(22 Jun-23 Julai), Scorpio(24 Oktober-22 November) dan Pisces(20 Februari-20 Mac).
1. Mempunyai sifat semulajadi untuk berkembang maju.
2. Mereka ini dipandu oleh perasaan hati dan mempunyai sifat mudah bersimpati, berdaya imaginatif, sentimental, mempunyai perasaan yang berubah-ubah dan berhati-hati.
3. Tenang dan mudah tersentuh oleh emosi orang-orang yang berada disekeliling dan cepat mengeluarkan air mata dalam sebarang situasi yang menyedihkan.
4. Mudah mengikut rentak emosi orang lain dan juga diri sendiri.

Untuk semua wanita:
1. Untuk membentuk bibir yang menawan, ucapkan kata-kata kebaikan.
2. Untuk mendapatkan mata yang indah, carilah kebaikan pada setiap orang yang anda jumpai.
3. Untuk mendapatkan bentuk badan yang langsing, berbagilah makanan dengan mereka yang kelaparan.
4. Untuk mendapatkan rambut yang indah, mintalah seorang anak kecil untuk menyisirnya dengan jemarinya setiap hari.

Friday, February 24, 2006

A Year Older

Happy Birthday to me. Gosh! I feel old... oooppsss...the correct word should be matured.

Too bad for me that I am not able to go on leave like I always do. My office is having the first ever Employee Award Day and I am one of the team members who are responsible to make it happen.

There are so much things to be done. Infact I still received sms from the President at 12.30 in the morning asking me to add this person and that person.

The event was a simple one. It is to give recognition to the staff who contributed to the successs of the organization, regardless at which level they are at. Even though all they get was just a certificate, I think the effect was magic. I can see the pride in their eyes when they received it. It feels good to know that that somebody value their contributions.

Even though I did not get any certificate, I had my moments too when the President mentioned my name in his speech.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

My Very Own Blog

I have been planning to have this blog for quite a while but never got the chance to do it (actually it was more like never push myself enough!) until now. As I was surfing the Internet for nothing in particular, it just struck me that if I don't start now, I never will. Furthermore, tomorrow is my birthday and I want to start something new.

So, here goes.. and I hope this will be my sanctuary where I will find solace and peace whenever I need one.